As The World Turns

In Arthurian Legend, the Holy Grail, the chalice from which Jesus Christ drank from at the Last Supper supposedly represent miracle powers, hence the life long search for it. In modern day context the "holy grail" is seen as the distant, all-but-unobtainable ultimate goal for a person, organization, or field to achieve. The What's My Life's Purpose. Admittedly I'd been on this quest for a while, unobtainable it was described but I can be a hard head at times. Blame it on a mid life crisis, moving here, everything and anything.

Meanwhile, As The World Was Turning, recently chance occured and I stumbled on a clue, a possibility. Curiosity led me to reading it up and then more curiosity developed. I delved into a sub-branch. I paid money (as usual) and bought a few books to find out more (I don't know how to go to the library and borrow...). The more I read, the more pieces began to fall into place. Inexplicable happenings now had a meaning. Past Faux Pas', Gaffs, Weird Behaviour were now clearly explained. The why of the things and what I did to begin the whys in the first place began to click.

Then it dawned on me, I'd been searching for the Grail conventionally.
It wasn't really Where Is It?
It should have been the What Is It? that I should have been looking for.
Now that I think I've identified the culprit. I've got a long road ahead to build things that suits me better.

It's both good and bad news. Well not really bad news but at least it explains A LOT. Like why I can't be like everyone else. The not knowing the Why had been driving me up the wall. Now I can come down, rather precarious hanging up there.

Back to my reading.